8 Books About Our New Robot Overlords

Remember the 1999 Disney Channel Original Movie Smart House? Shortly after his mother dies, Tech wiz kid Ben wins a brand new home with an in-house digital assistant system named PAT. Ben programs PAT to become a surrogate mother to keep his dad from needing to date anyone, until (spoiler alert) PAT takes on a tyrannical parenting philosophy that no one cares for.

Nearly twenty years later, we don’t have PAT, but we do have Alexa, and Siri, and Cortana. Just last week, The New York Times reported that Amazon’s Alexa has been laughing out-of-turn and without permission in conversations she’s not even a part of. Creepy. Is Alexa laughing at us or with us? While we aren’t asking these digital assistants to be our mothers (yet), we do ask them to wake us up, take care of our calendars, sing us lullabies, tell us the meaning of life. So is technology creepy or are we — the creators of technology — the real creeps?

Is Alexa laughing at us or with us? Is technology creepy or are we — the creators of technology — the real creeps?

There’s a lot to unpack here. Like, what’s the deal with naming all these “assistants” after women? And what exactly do we hope these anthropomorphized bots can do for us? While we can’t answer every one of these questions, here are 8 stories about robots — and we’re using the term “robot” pretty broadly here to include robots, artificial intelligence devices, and even one sex doll — that conjure up a history of our hopes and dreams, failures and successes with technology personified.

“Nirvana” by Adam Johnson from Fortune Smiles

In the near future, beds are voice-activated and drones inconspicuously hop from place to place. The president has been assassinated, and our protagonist is a programmer who has developed an algorithm that takes the archived recordings of the president to make him come to life again as a video-projection/hologram. His wife, Charlotte, has Guillain-Barré syndrome, an autoimmune disease that has left her paralyzed and potentially suicidal. The protagonist copes by talking to the virtual president every night, while Charlotte listens to Nirvana. It’s a heartbreaking, pretty perfectly executed story. What are the parts of life we get to do over?

The Cyberiad by Stanislaw Lem

Originally published in Poland in 1965, The Cyberiad was translated into English in 1974. It’s a collection of hilarious short stories that follow Trurl and Klapaucius, the brilliant “constructors” so named because they can seemingly construct whatever they want—and who are themselves from a race of robots who, the reader eventually learns, evolved to replace humans. The constructors can move around the stars to build advertisements, but also help those in need (for a fee, of course). In this medieval-space universe there are princesses and knights, sword fights and spaceships. Death is a problem that can be fixed, and loads of robots fall in love. The short story collection is a commentary on our endless desire for technology to fix the human condition, even if that means replacing it, and the comical failures on the other side of that desire.

I, Robot by Isaac Asimov

This a seminal collection of stories is framed by Dr. Susan Calvin who tells each story in the collection to a reporter in the 21st century. (Futuristic!) The collection includes Asimov’s “Three Laws of Robotics,” which would influence his later science fiction and even the “real-world” thinking about the ethics of artificial intelligence. Asimov was interested in troubling the “technophobia” around robots by writing stories about robots that help out humanity rather than war against it. In “Robbie,” he turns the old “the puppy went off to live on a farm” story on its head when a little girl can’t shake the loss of her best friend/robot named Robbie. In “Liar,” a robot named Herbie learns that lying to avoid hurting someone is never the right answer. And in “Evidence,” Stephen Byerley is gravely injured in an accident, but survives and becomes district attorney. His opponent creates a smear campaign claiming he’s actually a humanoid robot because no one ever sees him eat, and he has never prosecuted an innocent man. Is he simply “a really good man” or an unconvincing robot? In order to prove he’s of the flesh, he has to violate one of the three laws of robots by harming a human.

Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? by Philip K. Dick

We had to have some morally complicated robots on the list. Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep? (1968) is the novel that loosely set the stage for the 1982 film Blade Runner. It’s set in the year 2021, when most of the world has been destroyed by nuclear war, including most animal species. Humans are being carted off the planet with the promise of personal human-like androids waiting for them on Mars, and the humans that stay behind purchase incredibly lifelike android animals. Convinced that the all-too-lifelike androids on Mars will revolt and take over, the government bans them, employing bounty hunters like our protagonist Rick Deckard to find and “retire” the rogue androids who have escaped and gone into hiding. As with a lot of books on this list, Dick asks us to think about what it means to be human, who (and what) deserves empathy, and who gets to have an identity.

My Year in Re-Reading After 40: Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep

Ancillary Justice by Ann Leckie

When I started compiling this list of robot stories, I ran into a problem: most of the obvious choices were written by men. Even more disturbing, a lot of the stories were about agency-devoid women femme bots, or real live women being manipulated by technology mastered by men. Praise be for Ancillary Justice, the revenge-quest space opera, which beat out Nail Gaiman for the prestigious Nebula Award for best novel in 2013. Breq, our protagonist, was once a starship that used artificial intelligence to link thousands of corpse bodies living through one central consciousness used by the Radchaai empire to conquer the galaxy. But after an act of treachery leaves Breq separated from the central consciousness, she’s on a quest to revenge herself and kill the Lord of the Radch before anyone realizes what’s happened. It’s a complex story , moving across millennia and back and forth between different perspectives. For all you language lovers out there: Breq’s home language, which doesn’t distinguish between genders, and defaults to “she” until she learns otherwise, creates the effect, as Gretchen McCulloch wrote for Slate, “that the gender of the male characters is paradoxically less important and more visible,” and that the universe by default is understood to be dominated by women. And did I mention it’s part of a trilogy?

The Alchemy of Stone by Ekaterina Sedia

Mattie is an automaton stuck in the middle of the ongoing war between the Alchemists and the Mechanics in the city of Ayona. The alchemists, those who can manipulate stone but eventually turn into stone themselves, are the older order. The mechanics are the “innovators,” whose inventions are drastically demolishing the old to build up the new. After being seemingly emancipated by her mechanic master to study the alchemists, Mattie discovers more than she’s meant to. And the mechanic leader who built her still holds the key that literally winds up her heart up to keep her “alive.” The stakes are raised when a series of attacks exposes Mattie to the corruption keeping the city fueled and fed. It’s a melancholic and fantastical rendering of real-world gender, race, and class inequalities.

The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet by Becky Chambers

Rosemary Harper has given up the last of her nest egg on the Mars black market to become someone else — new name, new job, new destination— onboard the “Wayfarer,” with a fitting cast of characters onboard. There’s creepy and commanding Corbin; Sissix a scaly, feather-haired Aandrisk; the navigator Ohan; Kizzy and Jenks the techs; Dr. Chef the cook; Ashby the captain; and Lovelace (or “Lovey”) the AI. Their day-to-day jobs involve punching wormholes in between systems for other ships to travel through until they’re given the opportunity to take on a new job that promises loads of money and of course, loads of crazy risks. Lovey (named after Ada Lovelace the mathematician and first computer programmer), a sentient AI with no physical body, and the tech Jenks are in love. What I love about this story is the way it warps the “femmebot” trope of a female AI constructed for mindless sexual gratification. Instead of being a gleaming hunk of metal with some semblance of sentience, Lovey at one point considers getting a body kit so she can be with Jenks in physical form, but is worried about how this physical body will dull her sensibilities.

Made for Love by Alissa Nutting

Though it’s not exclusively about robots or artificial intelligence, Made for Love is on this list because it is a book that deals with the very real (and often grotesquely hilarious) reality of looking for physical pleasure and genuine connection when technology promises to provide these things more consistently than humans can. After deciding to leave her controlling tech husband, Byron Gogol, our protagonist Hazel shows up at her father’s trailer looking for a little escape, only to find out her dad’s shacked up with a sex doll named Diane. Hazel’s looking for a life change after Byron asks (read: demands) that she have a chip put in her head so they can “share” memories, like a file-sharing incarnate situation. In alternating chapters, we meet Jasper, the con man literally screwing women out of their wealth who, after a strange accident, has been left only attracted to dolphins. Everyone’s interested in sharing more, but touching each other less. When what we crave (i.e. human connection) is unpredictable, gross, and at times scary, we’ll try any substitute to avoid the pain, and create a whole different mess in the process. Hazel’s life is a different kind of wreck, one that we want in on rather than one we can judge with a sick kind of pleasure from afar. As Jia Tolentino writes in her review for The New Yorker: “She is the rare literary heroine in whose company it would be a pleasure to absolutely wreck my life.” Amen to that.

In Praise of Tender Masculinity, the New Non-Toxic Way to Be a Man

Media representations of masculinity tend to play in two notes: On the left we have Nice Guys and on the right we have Macho Men. Both play into ideas of toxic masculinity in their own ways. Macho Men are emotionally distant, but it’s okay because they’re buff and men don’t have feelings anyway. Whether it’s an action hero like Die Hard’s John McClane, or a tortured bad boy like The Breakfast Club’s Bender or Wuthering Heights’ Heathcliff, we are conditioned to see their anger issues as passion and their repressed emotions as something romantic for women to “fix.” Nice Guys are seen as an antidote, but more often than not, their niceness is performative and in direct relation to their feelings towards a crush. Think of Laurie in Little Women, who grows as a character through the help of Jo, but once she turns him down weaponizes all that character growth as leverage to get in her pants. Or Tom from 500 Days of Summer: He’s a charming underdog, but it’s not exactly “nice” of him to resent Summer for not meeting his romantic expectations despite her clear communication of her boundaries. In an era where toxic masculinity is utterly overwhelming, we are all desperate for a healthier and more nuanced role.

Enter Tender Masculinity.

In an era where toxic masculinity is utterly overwhelming, we are all desperate for a healthier and more nuanced role.

While we have mental imagery of Macho Men (buff, distant) and Nice Guys (nerdy, brooding), the characters that embody Tender Masculinity are multi-layered and come from all backgrounds.

Here is a checklist on how to spot a Tender Man:

  • Is he invested in all of his relationships, not just romantic ones?
  • Does he express his emotions in a healthy way?
  • Is self-awareness a concept he’s comfortable with?
  • Does he commit to personal growth?
  • Are boundaries something he is aware of and respects?
  • Is he unafraid of male intimacy — for instance, can he express affection for male friends without making a gay joke?

The best thing about Tender Masculinity is that it’s not only a necessary antidote to our media portrayals of men — it’s also already here. There aren’t a lot of Tender Man characters yet, and we’d love to see more, but a few books and movies are promoting this low-swagger, high-emotion ideal. These are the fully-realized male characters we need to celebrate and see more of.

A dramatic moment between bosom pals Sam (Sean Astin) and Frodo (Elijah Wood) in the movie “Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King”

Samwise Gamgee — Lord of the Rings

There are many heroes in the Lord of the Rings trilogy, and many are driven by masculine ideals like duty, honor, glory, or a sense of destiny. But Sam is the indisputable — though somewhat reluctant — hero who tops them all, driven by his love for his friend Frodo. Sam is a devoted friend, who does most of the emotional labor throughout the books. He brings us many moments of Tender Masculinity; following Frodo (even when he’s pressured not to) because he won’t let his friend suffer alone, recognizing and validating the burden of the One Ring, and being able to give a good dose of tough love when necessary. His emotional vulnerability is what makes him relatable, and it’s what makes him powerful. That ring would have never seen its fiery end without Sam in the picture.

Mahershala Ali, as Juan, emotes in this screenshot from “Moonlight”

Juan, Little/Black/Chiron, and Kevin—Moonlight

Moonlight is a breathtaking story for many reasons, one of those being its examination of toxic masculinity and the importance of tenderness. Tender Masculinity is not an identity of perfection; it is true to the human condition in that it is always a work in progress, a journey. The men of Moonlight all have difficult backgrounds, and at times succumb to the pressure of society’s poisonous expectations of men, but the moments of beauty in the film are when they embrace tenderness. Moonlight takes us through the life of our hero in three major periods: childhood, adolescence, and adulthood. During these periods, we explore his relationship with Juan, his father figure, and his complex feelings for his friend — and eventual lover — Kevin. When we see Juan teach Little how to swim, we’re shown the power in tenderness between men. We’re shown an important alternative to how the media often portrays masculinity, especially black masculinity. We’re shown the value of male friendships that we too often ignore.

Kyle Valenti knows something you don’t (it’s how to be a Tender Man) in “Roswell”

Kyle Valenti — Roswell

Kyle Valenti is a high school jock, a type of character usually portrayed as either a cool Macho Man or a bullying meathead who keeps our misfit Nice Guy hero away from the girl of his dreams. In the pilot of Roswell, we naturally expect that Kyle, our heroine Liz’s sporty main squeeze, will step in with all the fury of the spurned jock when she leaves him behind for the mysterious world surrounding social outcast Max. When we see Max get beat up by Kyle’s fellow football players, we assume Kyle told them to. But in fact, Kyle is livid when he finds out what his bros did. He apologizes to Max, and then approaches Liz and expresses his need for more open communication in their relationship.

Usually, the high school jock exits after the first act, but Kyle’s tenderness and surprising emotional maturity made him a character fascinating enough to keep around all the way through to the series finale. On this journey we get to see Kyle become a trustworthy ally, a good friend, a hard worker, a devoted son, and an occasional Buddhist? Kyle Valenti was a surprising character to see on mainstream TV in the early aughts, which is what made him so compelling.

Jared — Son of a Trickster

Son of a Trickster, the first book in an in-progress trilogy from Eden Robinson, introduces us to Jared, a 16-year-old Indigenous boy on the cusp of discovering who he really is. We get a full picture of Jared’s life; his relationship with his family, a girl next door, friends at school, his neighbors, his dog, and his enemies. Each relationship has its ups and downs throughout Jared’s journey, during which he is forced to reexamine his identity, his culture, and his connection to the past. Robinson’s novel examines teen angst, while also dispelling stereotypes and misconceptions of Indigenous communities (and Indigenous men in particular) through Jared’s story. While Jared sometimes emotionally shuts off, or finds himself in hypermasculine situations, Robinson makes clear that he is still just a child who has a tender side as well. There are many examples of this, but to me the most heartbreaking is how Jared reacts to the death of his dog, which comes at a particularly hectic time in his life. To me, this was the turning point in the novel where Jared allows himself to fully feel, to wallow in his sadness, and this newfound tenderness impacts his actions through the remainder of the story. The end of the book makes clear that diving into his emotions and reevaluating his identity are key to tapping into his magic.

Remus Lupin reunites with Sirius Black in the movie version of “Prisoner of Azkaban”

Remus Lupin — Harry Potter

Hogwarts professor and secret werewolf Remus Lupin was the most emotionally mature male in the Harry Potter series, and I will hear no arguments. Though Lupin’s lycanthropy initially makes Harry and his friends suspicious, he is shown to be a father figure, a sincere educator, a good friend, and a public-minded citizen committed to protecting his wider community. His most compelling relationship is with Nymphadora Tonks, his wife and the mother of his son. What makes their relationship refreshing is that it does not fit into a cookie cutter soul-mate narrative; their history together is fraught with trauma and grief, but rather than becoming codependent or distant, Lupin takes time to articulate and work through his complex feelings before marrying Tonks. (We won’t talk about what happens next.) There are a lot of characters in the Harry Potter series who are heroic through a sense of duty, honor, or sometimes even reluctance, but Lupin is heroic through his tender heart.

The guys cheer Richie on in “Magic Mike XXL”

Everybody — Magic Mike XXL

Let me tell you, the real magic of this movie isn’t the well-choreographed thrusting, it’s the celebration of male friendship. In a movie that could be completely cliché, this bro squad does not succumb to the macho stereotypes you may expect. These men are here for each other through thick and thin: relationship problems, supporting healthy sexuality, resisting toxic masculinity, encouraging career goals, and fostering overall personal development. In one of the most GIFable scenes in cinematic history, the friends are reexamining their acts for StripCon (and, yes, rolling on ecstasy). Mike is encouraging the gang to leave behind their cliche personas (fireman, etc.) and develop routines that are representative of themselves. His buddy Big Dick Richie is feeling insecure about coming up with something completely new; he’d rather just stick to his comfort zone instead of putting himself out there. The guys stop at a gas station, and as a way to convince Richie that he is talented at what he does, they challenge him to do a spontaneous number for the incredibly bored gas station employee and give her a reason to smile. While Richie does his improvised routine to a fortuitous Backstreet Boys soundtrack, the rest of his friends are outside cheering him on, genuinely excited to see him gain his confidence back. And Richie succeeds: the woman breaks out in laughter and the boys are re-committed to their vision.

While there are more examples we could list here (all of the men and boys of Stranger Things, for example), there is no ignoring that Tender Masculinity is underrepresented in the stories we tell. It is important that we embrace these stories, because while examining toxic male archetypes in media is necessary, condemning them without offering a healthy alternative just leads to more toxic men in media… and in real life. While the idea of tender masculinity is not new, these stories are becoming more mainstream and embraced. But they’re rare in the grand scheme of things. If we don’t celebrate the ones we have, we risk losing these stories to the same old clichés. Celebrating tender men trickles over into our day-to-day, giving the next generation the male role models they deserve. I look forward to the day when the tender men of fiction are just as common as the Macho Men and Nice Guys we know too well.

A Brief History of the End of the World

To say that the apocalypse is a modern obsession is like doing a shock exposé about the Pope’s religion. Just in terms of sheer volume, there has never been a time when apocalyptic and post-apocalyptic stories have been produced in greater profusion and variety than we’re seeing now. I’m not complaining, being right in line with the zeitgeist here. I’m just stating a point.

Partly, of course, this is a case of taste being informed by fashion. You read a book, enjoy it, and go looking for something in a similar vein. And partly it’s publishers responding to and accommodating that taste. But I’d argue that these are both reactive processes. They kick in after something has already begun to happen. And in this case, the something was writers turning to the end of the world as a theme that needed to be explored.

We’ve been here before, of course. The end of the world holds a perennial fascination for us, and we just can’t keep ourselves from going there, time after time. But the modern era is different in a lot of ways. Until recently those end-of-the-world narratives were mostly the province of religious texts, which having told us how things got going in the first place seemed to feel obliged to wrap up all the plotlines at the end. But after we invented the novel (early eighteenth century) and universal literacy (work in progress, TBC) an inexorable shift began. It was slow at first, but gradually those themes and ideas became the province of popular fictions consumed by large numbers of people.

At that point they were free to evolve. Bibles don’t, very much, except through the vagaries of translation. There are always fundamentalists ready to hand to get outraged if you shift a comma. Novels, on the other hand, because of the way in which they’re produced and consumed, proliferate like rabbits, swap DNA like viruses and change more rapidly and unpredictably than Darwin’s finches.

That’s also true of genres, none more so that the apocalyptic novel. Each wave of doomsday plot devices is different from the one before, and I think those changes tell us something about ourselves. Or at least, something about our nightmares and neuroses, which the apocalyptic novel both plays on and partially assuages.

Each wave of doomsday plot devices is different from the one before, and those changes tell us something about ourselves.

Every generation sees the end of the world through the prism of its own day-to-day reality. And the popularity of apocalyptic fiction seems to rise and fall in line with real-world fears and tensions and insecurities. Taxonomy only takes us so far, though. What’s remarkable about the best post-apocalyptic narratives is what they do with their initial premise — what kind of stories they launch from the springboard of global catastrophe.

1960s: Eco-Apocalypse

Barring a few nineteenth-century outliers (Mary Shelly gets there first, as usual, with The Last Man in 1826) science fiction doesn’t begin to address itself en masse to the end of the world until the 1960s. The pulps flirted with it, but the few doomsday scenarios were far outweighed by the bright, millennarian visions. Most future Earths from the ‘30s to the ‘50s had tidy little galactic empires with well-manicured lawns. The aliens would get a little frisky from time to time, but there was almost always a Buck Rogers or a Kimball Kinnison to put them firmly in their places.

The writers who were coming to the fore in the ‘60s had experienced World War Two firsthand; they had seen how a seemingly stable world order could tear itself apart in a sudden paroxysm. But if their uncertainty about the future was rooted in the past, their main reference point was still a contemporary one. Their biggest nightmare, time after time, was environmental disaster.

It’s easy to see why. Rachel Carson’s Silent Spring, released in 1962, blew the lid off the pesticides industry and brought the term food chain into everyday use. Revealing how chemicals like DDT built in concentration as they worked their way up from plants to herbivores to predators, Carson changed the way most people looked at the natural world. It would be another decade or so before James Lovelock proposed the Gaia Hypothesis, but the idea of the environment as a system of complex interdependencies whose ability to self-repair might have limits arguably starts with Carson’s passionate wake-up call.

The science fiction writers of the day answered and amplified that call. J.G. Ballard’s The Drowned World was the first of many novels of the time to take the theme of eco-catastrophe and run with it. In Ballard’s book, global warming has caused the ice caps to melt, shrinking the habitable land mass of the world and overwhelming entire countries. In the same year, John Christopher’s The World In Winter pushed in the opposite direction to imagine a new ice age, while Ballard went on to make eco-apocalypse a recurring theme with stories like The Wind From Nowhere (super-hurricane), The Crystal World (a mysterious phenomenon that crystallizes living tissue) and The Drought (guess).

Obviously Carson’s work identified the human impact on the natural world as the real problem that needed to be addressed. Sixties sci-fi took that idea on board too, imagining worlds in which overpopulation, pollution, and resource depletion were the catalysts for global meltdown. John Brunner’s work stands out here, particularly Stand On Zanzibar, The Jagged Orbit, and The Sheep Look Up.

1970s and 1980s: When Two Tribes Go to War

Man-made disasters continued to be a dominant theme in the science fiction of the ‘70s and ‘80s. In fact, the cinema of the day, playing catch-up with the previous decade’s prose fiction, was making up for lost time with movies such as Silent Running, Soylent Green, and Zardoz.

But themes like deforestation and global famine were gradually eclipsed by a new sort of end-of-the-world McGuffin, one that depended on the ever-more-plausible scenario of global nuclear war. Nevil Shute had led the way with On the Beach, much earlier, and the nuclear apocalypse had never really gone out of style, but the late ‘70s and ‘80s saw an unprecedented spike in such stories. Roger Zelazny’s Damnation Alley dates from this time, as do David Graham’s Down To a Sunless Sea, David Brin’s The Postman, and Russell Hoban’s Riddley Walker.

Themes like deforestation and global famine were gradually eclipsed by a new sort of end-of-the-world McGuffin.

I remember very vividly how ubiquitous that fear was. It became such a dominant cultural meme that it was no longer the province of science fiction. Pop music paid homage to it in songs like “Dancing With Tears In My Eyes,” “99 Red Balloons,” and “Let’s All Make a Bomb.” Sober, realistic TV dramas like Threads and The Day After brought the idea into the post-watershed mainstream, and Raymond Briggs reduced it to its heartbreaking basics with When the Wind Blows. Whatever medium you worked in, whether it was film, TV, prose, or comics, if you wanted to imagine a future that was dislocated from the present then a nuclear war was the only entry ticket you needed.

This is where the generational model starts to break down a little, for an interesting reason. The sheer volume of texts produced in prose and other media had been climbing exponentially ever since the start of the twentieth century. As a side effect, influences get faster and faster and cycles get shorter. Ideas that were fresh and new become familiar cultural shorthand, then cliché, in the space of a few years.

With no Soviet Union to hang our anxieties on, we invented new ones. It’s around about this time that the zombies come lurching into view.

Human mutation is one of many ideas that suddenly becomes ubiquitous — a universally available trope that needs no explanation. Earlier novels such as John Wyndham’s The Chrysalids had for the most part stayed closer to the known scientific facts, portraying mutation as something that was random and for the most part unwelcome. But the super-powered mutant now becomes a staple in popular fiction. The link to atomic radiation as a mutagenic agent is often forgotten, but it persists for example in the perennial tagline for Marvel’s mutant X-Men, “the children of the atom,” and in 2000 AD’s Strontium Dog.

With the end of the Cold War in 1991, the fear that it would suddenly turn hot dissipated too. With no Soviet Union to hang our anxieties on, we invented new ones. It’s around about this time that the zombies come lurching into view.

1980s–2000s: Evil Dead

The zombie apocalypse presents a special case. For one thing, it exists at the contested border between horror and science fiction. And for another, it has proved to be uniquely versatile, splitting into sub-genres of its own and (arguably) becoming more intensely self-referential than any other type of genre text.

The shading from classic horror zombies to the more nuanced zombies of today took place gradually and subtly, and with a minimum of fuss. Where 1978’s Dawn Of the Dead assured us that “when there’s no more room left in Hell, the dead will walk the Earth,” the zombies in 1985’s Re-Animator were created by a serum devised and administered by a scientist, and Joe R. Lansdale’s Cadillac Desert (1989) had zombies spawned by a bacterium — an innovation that changed the whole fictional landscape. 28 Days Later, in 2002, locked in this idea of the zombie plague with its vivid imagery and Wyndham-inspired plot, and most zombie texts that have followed (including my own The Girl With All the Gifts, 2014) have been strongly influenced by this template.

Surely the zombie apocalypse   isn’t a rational thing to be afraid of? Well, you’d think that.

But what do zombie movies tell us about our fears? Surely the zombie apocalypse — unlike eco-collapse or nuclear war — isn’t a rational thing to be afraid of? Well, you’d think that, but a lot of people do seem to be afraid of it just the same. Here in the U.K., the Daily Mail ran a story last January with the headline A ZOMBIE OUTBREAK COULD COME CLOSE TO WIPING OUT HUMANITY IN 100 DAYS. A similar article in the Huffington Post offered tips for survival under the sub-deck quote “It’s not a matter of if, it’s a matter of when.”

So zombies work surprisingly well on the literal level, but they’re also a great vehicle for other fears. In the horror milieu, they were often a vehicle for barely-veiled jeremiads against the ills of modern society, confronting us with a distorted mirror of our own instincts and drives. The shopping mall in Day Of the Dead, to go for everyone’s favorite example, continues to dominate the ruined suburban landscape as the world falls apart. It’s a refuge for the living and a weird lure for the undead, who dimly remember that everything they ever wanted was once contained within those walls. Director George Romero followed that dark vision in 2005’s Land Of the Dead with an allegorical fable about the class struggle in modern America and the growing wealth gap.

Zombies remind us that our own personhood can be rescinded.

In science fiction, I think the zombie apocalypse presents differently and carries a different freight of meaning. To make an obvious point, the rationale for the existence of zombies in the first place usually relates not to the lack of available storage space in Hell but to a plague — the work of a bacillus, a virus, a fungus or an alien mind-worm. Modern fears of a pandemic, stoked by near-misses with SARS and H1N1 are obviously very relevant here.

But there’s also an existential aspect to the threat zombies pose. Zombies are people in shape only; they look like us but they don’t have any spark of consciousness. They remind us that our own personhood can be rescinded. To become a zombie is to lose what makes you human — so these apocalypses tear us down from the inside, replacing the heroic property damage of (say) a Roland Emmerich movie with something subtler but much more devastating, the inexorable crumbling of your own selfhood, your soul. Hence the counterpoise in a novel like Isaac Marion’s Warm Bodies between the familiar genre furniture of ruined urban landscapes and survivalist enclaves, and the precarious affection that forms between R and Julie. The abyss, here, is wholly internal.

2000s and 2010s: Slouching Towards Bethlehem

That seems to have taken us past the dawn of the new millennium, where apocalypses come in every flavor to suit your pocket and your taste.

The plague-based apocalypse isn’t limited to zombies. Novels such as The Space Between the Stars and Louise Welsh’s Plague Times trilogy both dramatize very vividly the widespread societal collapse that a pandemic might bring.

Eco-catastrophe has returned — but with more teeth, informed by the overwhelming scientific consensus on global warming and a shedload of incontrovertible evidence. The Water Knife by Paolo Bacigalupi offers us a near future where water scarcity has made the U.S.A. a union in name only, pitting the Western states against each other in vicious legal and paramilitary skirmishes. In The Stone Gods, Jeanette Winterson hauntingly invents a migratory past for the human race, suggesting that this isn’t the first time we’ve devoured an entire planet’s resources out from under ourselves. And let’s not forget Wall-E, whose garbage-choked cityscapes were one of the most haunting visions Pixar’s brilliant animators have ever produced.

Eco-catastrophe has returned — but with more teeth.

Global war (nuclear or otherwise) is still contending strongly, although these days it seems mostly to express itself through massive franchises like The Hunger Games, Mad Max, and Planet Of the Apes. Actually, in saying that, I’m ignoring Cormac McCarthy’s The Road (2006), one of the most powerful and affecting post-apocalyptic novels ever written. And I guess there was The Book Of Eli, too, however much we might wish there wasn’t. In that movie, in case you don’t remember, the power of God’s guiding hand allows a blind man to fight his way (with ninja warrior skill levels) across a blighted America to bring a copy of the bible to a miraculously intact printing press on the West Coast. The Almighty may have allowed the human race to descend back into barbarism, with incalculable loss of life, but at least He still gets to tell His side of the story. Yay.

We’ve also got a growing trend for stories where humanity is destroyed or superseded by its own technology, with the emergence of artificial intelligence research proving very fertile soil for paranoia. The Terminator movies had already given full vent to these concepts back in the ‘80s, but Robert Cargill’s Sea Of Rust (2017) goes one better by setting its narrative after the human extinction event has already happened. In shifting the never-ending struggle for survival from us to the beings who exterminated and replaced us, Cargill offers some startling insights into the way ecosystems work and our place in Earth’s so fragile yet so resilient biosphere.

What’s the Point of It All?

Looking at this cornucopia of cataclysms, you could be forgiven for thinking that in the modern era we’re afraid of pretty much everything — or at least that our end-of-the-world presentiments are reaching an unprecedented high. I wouldn’t argue against either of those things. In the wake of the financial collapse a decade ago, the prospect of having your life suddenly and spectacularly become non-viable has become a day-to-day reality for many — and the world’s political systems have largely been put into the hands of rogues and fools (I don’t mean either rogues or fools, I mean people who are both), so it’s no surprise if we keep probing the sore place to see how badly it hurts.

But apocalyptic fiction is far more than a sort of psychic immunization program, giving us little disasters so the big one won’t hurt so much when it comes. For one thing, apocalypses are a good place for conducting thought-experiments. By clearing away the inessentials they make room for searching questions about who we are and what we’re for. So much of our behavior and our thinking is dictated by the social roles we play. We move through our days like actors crossing a stage, all our moves blocked and all our words cued up for us in advance. If society breaks down, there’s nobody left to prompt us. We suddenly have to improvise, and in the process we discover ourselves, as the American poet Wallace Stevens put it, “more truly and more strange.”

Apocalypses are a good place for conducting thought experiments.

That’s certainly true of Cormac McCarthy’s masterful The Road, in which a father and son journey through a landscape so depleted by catastrophe that food is almost entirely exhausted. Their humanity and their love for each other is tested beyond every conceivable limit, but it holds. “If he is not the word of God,” the father thinks as he looks down on his sleeping child, “then God never spoke.” In N.K. Jemisin’s Broken Earth books, by contrast, the focus is on racial tensions and divisions seen through the lens of a society hardened and coarsened by regular apocalypse events. Jemisin brilliantly dissects the way mistrust between groups can be fomented to serve political agendas that have nothing to do with survival and everything to do with power and advantage.

In some stories, the end of the world functions as metaphor. Kurt Vonnegut’s early masterpiece Cat’s Cradle is a darkly hilarious fable about the arms race and its logical end point, but it’s many other things besides and one of them is a meditation on human mortality. The book is full of deaths that are tragic, absurd or both, and though in due course it builds to an end-of-the-world moment (“the great ah-whoom”) it also reminds us poignantly that every death is the end of a world. That’s literally one of the tenets of the novel’s invented religion, Bokononism, which also gives us the novel’s closing lines and humanity’s defiant response to the arbitrariness of the universe.

Post-apocalyptic narratives differ, too, in where they position themselves relative to the end of the world. Many show it happening in the narrative present (which means they’re not post-apocalyptic at all). Most jump forward a generation to show the new world order that’s forming, and make that the central focus. That’s become a staple of YA fiction in recent years, with many writers following the trail that Suzanne Collins blazed in the Hunger Games trilogy.

But some writers go off-piste. Jasper Fforde’s brilliant Shades Of Grey (a title he must regret every day of his life) takes place many centuries after its sundering apocalypse, which is referred to only as “the something that happened.” The new society that has risen up is profoundly ignorant of its own past, and so is the reader. We see the end product, but we don’t see the process, so we’re false-footed again and again by the novel’s brilliant reveals.

And some novels don’t announce themselves as apocalyptic at all, but are still suffused with the elegiac sense of an era, a way of life, a civilization winding to its close. Foremost among these implicit apocalypses is Claire North’s wonderful The End Of the Day, whose point-of-view character, Charlie, acts as the harbinger of death. When death is coming, Charlie is sent before, sometimes as a courtesy and sometimes as a warning. But the deaths he is sent to mark aren’t always the deaths of individuals, and as the book progresses we start to see patterns and correspondences that foreshadow a bigger, more profound death. The personal, the global and the cosmic overlap and interpenetrate, as they do in Cat’s Cradle.

Perhaps, if there’s a common thread running through apocalyptic fiction (and I admit that’s a big if) then it’s novels like Cat’s Cradle and The End Of the Day that give it its clearest expression. There’s a scene in the latter book where Charlie attends a funeral for someone he has got to know in the course of his work.

The Harbinger of Death sits quietly and nods at the words that come… and cries with the rest of the room, not in raging grief that shouts and screams, but at the size of the hollow left behind, which no one now can fill.

And outside the church…

Death waits, but does not enter. Her work is done, for today, and funerals she feels are a ceremony for the living, not the dead. She has no interest in corpses.

That exquisite tension defines apocalyptic fiction for me. It always gives us a split focus, on “the hollow left behind” and on the living who now have to reach a new accommodation with a new reality. That’s a crucial and complicated part of being human, and we need all the help we can get. Perhaps that’s why we turn so often to stories that take us to the edge of the abyss and hold our hands as we look down.

A New Anthology of Asian American Writing Asks What Home Even Means

It’s 2018, and, just a few weeks ago, Olympian Mirai Nagasu landed her history-making triple axel. During the joyful outpouring that followed, New York Times writer and editor Bari Weiss sent out a would-be supportive tweet: “Immigrants: They get the job done.” The thing is, though, Nagasu isn’t an immigrant; she was born in Montebello, in California. Told of her mistake, Weiss tweeted that she’d believed she was taking poetic license. It was “another sign of civilization’s end,” she said, that people reacted so strongly, and negatively, to her mistake.

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But it’s not any kind of mistake: that tweet reflected a much larger issue. To live in an Asian-looking body in a Western country so often involves being perceived as foreign, alien, from and of elsewhere. Go home, racist people tell us, while this is our home; go back to your country, while this is where we belong. Go Home! is also the title of a new anthology of Asian diasporic writing, edited by Rowan Hisayo Buchanan, and issued by the Asian American Writers’ Workshop and the Feminist Press. The book includes prose and poetry from writers as varied — and as wonderful — as Viet Thanh Nguyen, Alexander Chee, Kimiko Hahn, Alice Sola Kim, Mohja Kahf, Wendy Xu, Sharlene Teo, Wo Chan, Muna Gurung, Muhammad Amirul bin Muhamad, Jennifer Tseng, Rajiv Mohabir, Gina Apostol, Fariha Róisín, Esmé Weijun Wang, Chaya Babu, Mia Alvar, Amitava Kumar, Karissa Chen, Gaiutra Bahadur, Jason Koo, T. Kira Madden, Marilyn Chin, and Chang-rae Lee.

I talked to Buchanan about totemic writers, how the anthology opens up the complexities of Home, and the gross simplicity of racism.

R.O. Kwon: What inspired the idea of assembling this anthology? Was there any one catalyzing event, or was it more an ongoing sense of need?

Rowan Hisayo Buchanan: The coming together of the Feminist Press and the Asian American Writers’ Workshop was the practical catalyst. But my need for a book about home long predates that.

I have a Japanese-Chinese-American mother and a British father and I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about home and where it might be. I’ve had a lifetime of people asking “What are you?” And sometimes I felt like I didn’t have the answer. I’d end up in conversations about the virtues of “Oriental women” that made me want to scream for myself, for my mother, and my grandmother. But I’d smile just like they imagine good Oriental women do, and try to escape.

My grandmother was born in Shanghai but has spent 67 years in America. She learned to program early computers. She learned to drive a car for a job in Texas. I’ve caught her having telephone chats with telemarketers about the Green Bay Packers. But she also leaves food on the ancestral altar. She’ll tell me I can live with her as long as I like because that’s the Chinese way. But none of that complexity fits into their idea of an Oriental Woman. Racism simplifies.

I suppose I wanted to find a better way to answer when asked, “Where are you from?”

So perhaps it’s no coincidence that complicated and fraught homes figure heavily in my own work. In my novel, Harmless Like You, a Japanese artist abandons her family and runs away to Berlin. I was curious and excited to find out what other Asian diasporic writers made of Home as a topic. I suppose I wanted to find a better way to answer when asked, “Where are you from?”

Kwon: Wait, conversations about the virtues of “Oriental women” — conversations, plural, what the hell?

Buchanan: Usually the conversations are with older men who I am trapped next to for one reason or another. For example, an older man, who was a donor to an institution I cared about a lot. He has now passed on and his legacy does good work, so I will allow him to remain nameless. But for an hour or so over drinks he congratulated me on the fact that, for an Oriental woman, I made good eye contact.

Another time, I ended up talking to a European man who had once been married to a Japanese woman who was “very cold.” But he planned to go to rural China to find a new girlfriend, where they were “still grateful.”

I don’t know if it’s because I’m mixed race that they feel able to tell me these things? Or is my face too sympathetic? They usually come up with so many clichés that I feel almost ashamed to be reporting them. It seems like racism should be more complex, but sometimes it’s not.

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Kwon: I’m really sorry that happened. As for racism not being complex — I agree, evil can be so simple. How did you think about what kinds of writing, and from whom, you wanted to include in the book?

Buchanan: While I am aware that no single book can capture the complexity of Home, I wanted to try to allow the book to speak to many different experiences of what home might be. Some of the pieces have been published elsewhere and some are brand new. I envisioned this book as a conversation. It is a mix of fiction, non-fiction and poetry. Truth and beauty come in many costumes. It was exciting to put a story about demon-summoning Korean adoptees in the same book as a personal essay about border control and a poem about a makeup counter.

We tried to reach out to a range of writers from different ages and backgrounds. One of the joys of an anthology is the ability to share space. Home can be about language, about citizenship, about religion, about food, about family. Different writers found struggles and joys in different places.

I wanted the book to speak to many different experiences of what home might be.

Kwon: We’ve talked, in the past, about some of the joys and challenges of bringing an anthology into the world. While compiling Go Home!, did you experience any especially high points? What about any low points?

Buchanan: High points included working on the cover, I felt like everyone was on board with the mission. We were all familiar with the tired tropes of embroidery, cheongsam, and the objectified Asian woman as cover art. Although we went through several cover designs, the process always felt collaborative. We ended up with a shadowy black landscape and neon pink lettering. It’s like nothing I’ve seen before and I’m delighted with it.

Also, engaging with the writing. I love the work in this anthology. Several of the works were my first experiences with those writers. Others, I had been aware of for a long time, some of whom like Chang Rae Lee are well known. But the writer whom I have been personally following the longest is Esmé Weijun Wang. Her novel, The Border of Paradise, only came out in 2016. But as a teenager who was struggling for various reasons, I used to find great solace in her blog. I think I wrote her fan mail once! Obviously, I jumped at the chance to read her novel, which is beautiful. As we corresponded about her essay for the anthology, I was aware of the long journey that had led to that conversation.

And finding out that I was going to be able to do a tour and meet so many of my contributors!

A low point was not being able to include a story I really loved by an emerging writer. When we considered the balance of the anthology as a whole, it wasn’t a good fit. Editors talk about fit a lot and it can sound like fluff. But it was true. I wanted to be able to include everybody.

Kwon: Who were some formative Asian diasporic writers for you?

Buchanan: Can I be lame and say I loved Ishiguro before the Nobel? He can slip such strong emotion into a text without it ever feeling overwrought. For me as a part-East Asian kid, growing up in a very white and very English environment, his work was totemic for me. He could write about Japan and England. He wrote about the past and the future. He made me feel unlimited.

Ruth Ozeki is a personal hero of mine. She’s a novelist, a filmmaker, and a Buddhist monk. In all her writing, she embraces ideas of multiplicity. Every part of her work seems to shout that you can be as many things as you want. But she doesn’t shy away from big political issues like agribusiness, war, meat marketing.

Jhumpa Lahiri continues to inspire me. As you probably know, she’s living in Italy and writing in Italian these days, for reasons she describes in an article for the New Yorker. She is just so good at what she does. Her stories are beautifully balanced. But she never got complacent. Instead, she’s pushing herself in new ways.

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Kwon: Ishiguro’s writing is totemic for me, too. Strong emotion being slipped in — yes. Did you grow up reading many Asian diasporic writers? I’ve been thinking a lot, these days, about the fact that it wasn’t until late in college that I really began reading Asian writers, and what effect that’s had on my writing.

Buchanan: I was lucky that I encountered a few as a teenager. This partially had to do with having a mother who loved books and partially had to do with the fact that I lived near an excellent bookshop. I have written a little about it here. But I remember that I thought of them as rare treasures. For a long time, I had the ambition to own all the published work by Asian writers. I don’t think it was until I was standing in AAWW’s library that I realized how impossible that ambition was. It was a strange feeling of giving up on a dream and of being given a huge gift.

It’s wonderfully freeing to be able to celebrate the work of others.

Kwon: I love that you had such an ambition. I know putting this book together must have been a lot of work, and I’m so glad and thankful it’s going to be in the world. I’m greedy, though. I find I want more! You’re a writer too, of course, and a splendid one — how do you think of balancing the two, writing and editing? Do you see more anthology-compiling in your near future?

Buchanan: I’d love to do more anthology-compiling. Seeing the pieces come together and start to spark off each other was thrilling. It was a lot of work, but I’m also aware of how much harder it would have been without the support of AAWW and the Feminist Press. Jyothi and Jisu both worked so hard. I’m not sure how I’d feel going it alone!

As a writer these days, you are often asked to do a lot of banner-waving for your own work. And I’ve been grateful that I’ve been given the opportunity to do that. When you work on something for years, it makes sense to give it the best push into the world that you can. But it can also start to feel a bit egocentric. It’s wonderfully freeing to be able to celebrate the work of others.

Kwon: Can you talk about Asian diasporic writers you love who aren’t in the anthology?

Buchanan: I’m glad you asked. One of my great hopes for this anthology is that it opens doors. I hope people read it and become excited about the possibilities of Asian diasporic writing.

An incomplete list of contemporary writers from the Asian diaspora whose work I have fallen for — Sangeeta Bandyopadhyay, Sarah Shun-lien Bynum, Cathy Linh Che, Nicole Chung, Patti Yumi Cottrell, Guy Gunaratne, Mohsin Hamid, Will Harris, Peter Ho Davies, Vanessa Hua, Christine Hyung-Oak Lee, Violet Kupersmith, Jennifer Sookfong Lee, Celeste Ng, Bich Minh Nguyen, Yumi Sakugawa, Kamila Shamsie, Nikesh Shukla, Cheryl Tan, Roma Tearne, Madeleine Thien, Ocean Vuong, Jenny Zhang.

Can I say you? I’m just beginning to dig into the The Incendiaries.

This list is incomplete for two reasons. First, I have so much yet to read. Second, because as soon as this is published, I’ll remember someone’s brilliant sentences and kick myself for not including them. For anyone reading this — if you see someone’s work I’ve left off that you love, please celebrate them!

I Saw Myself in Meg Murry Even Before She Looked Like Me

Almost two decades before Ava DuVernay’s adaptation of A Wrinkle in Time, I wrote my own story based on the characters in Madeleine L’Engle’s novel. The driving impulse was not “to be an author” or, that classic seed of fanfiction,“to insert a thinly-veiled version of myself as someone’s love interest” (I was eight). It wasn’t even “to pick up where the book left off.” The only reason I took any interest in the family computer, picking out words from a senseless arrangement of letters, was to gain admittance into L’Engle’s world through a direct portal: the medium in which she worked. Kind of like tessering. But walking around inside the story wasn’t just an opportunity to luxuriate in the details of a world that I loved, or to speculate on the ones I didn’t understand — it was also a chance to correct the things that didn’t agree with me. Despite my childhood love for A Wrinkle in Time, alongside that love I felt a competing conviction: that L’Engle was utterly wrong about certain details of the world she’d created.

This feeling had nothing to do with experimental physics or tesseracts or time-space travel — my gripes were with the quotidian, things like the the shape of the Murrys’ dog’s head. My problem wasn’t exactly that these details didn’t ring true; it was more a frustration at their failure to conform to my mental image of them. With the family dog, Fortinbras (a name that, lacking the Shakespearean referent at the time, I subjected to the same levels of mangling I later brought to pronunciations of “Hermione”), I disliked the way L’Engle dwelled on the “slender darkness” of his head. Surely, my logic went, faced with a name as unwieldy as Fortinbras, no one in their right mind would envision such a creature as anything other than massive and shaggy. My imagined version swelled against the shell of the textual description until the latter cracked and lost purchase, with my story becoming a gallery for these revised details. This was how completely I inhabited L’Engle’s world — I felt I had the authority to claim when she had gotten it wrong.

Which means that when I learned of DuVernay’s film adaptation and the miracle of a black Meg, I wondered for the first time: why wasn’t that one of the book’s realities I refused to accept? If I didn’t think twice about swapping out dog breeds or house layouts for my preferred versions (even when such decisions ran counter to the cover art, which I usually took to be authoritative), why didn’t it occur to me to mentally rewrite Meg Murry — the character in the book with whom I most ardently identified — as biracial, like me? Why, in other words, were Meg and her world places in which I seamlessly saw myself, despite the fact that, for instance, Meg can easily “[run] her fingers through her mouse-brown hair,” but if I (or Storm Reid, who plays Meg) tried that at home, I’d pull clumps out at the root?

Why didn’t it occur to me to mentally rewrite Meg Murry — the character in the book with whom I most ardently identified — as biracial, like me?

Part of the reason, I imagine, is that non-white children intuit early in their reading lives that looking like their favorite character is a luxury not on offer. Unless we struggle mightily against the specifics of a text that at best, like J.K. Rowling’s claims about not-not-black-Hermione, don’t explicitly rule out the possibility of a racialized character altogether, we learn to find alternative grounds for identification. In A Wrinkle in Time, I would have been faced with the herculean task of imaginatively fighting my way past a squad of several blondes (Meg’s three younger brothers), an intimidatingly beautiful redhead with “creamy skin” (her mother), and Meg’s own mousy brown mop. Honestly, it’s easier just to change the dog.

But there’s also something in L’Engle’s work that, for me, made it about different questions than simply “Where am I in this book?” A Wrinkle in Time invited identification across difference, capturing a quality of childhood that hinges more on the emotional than the visual. This is a novel that begins at midnight in a drafty attic, but immediately ushers you downstairs into a warm kitchen with cocoa and sandwiches. It hyperbolizes empathy in the form of a child, Meg’s little brother Charles Wallace, who uses his telepathic abilities to anticipate the emotional needs of his mother and sister. It takes an almost comedic glee in childhood precocity, attributing to a fourteen-year-old dialogue like, “I must remember I’m preconditioned in my concept of your mentality.” It’s theatrical almost to the point of parody, and yet it’s such a thrill for a nerdy kid to encounter a line like this; its implicit promise that there are others like you who take the same joy in language and that, even if you’re a self-described “oddball” like Meg, somewhere beyond these pages you might eventually find your people.

‘A Wrinkle in Time’ invited identification across difference, capturing a quality of childhood that hinges more on the emotional than the visual.

All of which is to suggest that it is a book that throws down the welcome mat, grabs you by the hand, and pulls you in. It champions as the center of attention a girl who both acts out and questions her own deservingness of any attention at all. Weirdos are especially welcome here. L’Engle’s participatory, inclusive aesthetic is much of why I was so willing to both project myself into the book and impose upon it my own tiny acts of creation. If something felt wrong about the layout of its world, I knew she wouldn’t begrudge me a few minor renovations.

Nor would she begrudge DuVernay her directorial vision. DuVernay too has knocked on the door, been welcomed in, and moved a thing or two around. Rather than an entirely white family, the Murrys of 2018 are a mixed couple — a black mother (played by Gugu Mbatha-Raw) and white father (Chris Pine) — with a biracial daughter (played by the fierce, and fiercely loving, Storm Reid) and an adopted Filipino-American son (nine-year-old Deric McCabe, whose exuberance shifts with impressive ease from adorable to terrifying when the story calls for it). All of a sudden, I was offered more than just a hero with whom I shared intellectual precocity and emotional intensity — I had one who shared my hair.

All of a sudden, I was offered more than just a hero with whom I shared intellectual precocity and emotional intensity — I had one who shared my hair.

DuVernay’s innovations go deeper than merely diversifying the cast. Imagine if black Hermione had also gone to Black Hogwarts. The characters in A Wrinkle in Time attend the fictional James Baldwin Middle School, where posters of Maya Angelou hang high on hallway cork boards. Mrs. Which, the head of a trio of astral-plane warriors and the film’s closest thing to a deity, is played by Oprah Winfrey. The novel’s fixation with Meg’s frizzy hair assumes an edge onscreen: when Calvin O’Keefe, Meg’s nascent love interest, first tells her, “You know, you have great hair,” her brush-off is a given for the black female viewer. Of course she wants him to shut up — no doubt she’s had white boys trying to touch her hair for the past thirteen years. The viewer’s recognition of this shared history makes Meg’s eventual acceptance of the compliment, and corresponding acceptance of herself as deserving it, even more moving.

It was a doubled satisfaction that I got to experience in the theater: the comfort of re-entering a remembered world, and the pleasant shock of recognition at having the familiar speak to me in a more intimate way. DuVernay’s casting was an unexpected gift, one that I wish I’d known how to ask for as a child reader and filmgoer. The lesson of her casting is a crucial one: To adapt a story and replace the majority of its white characters with characters of color is a weight that any worthwhile source material can handily bear, whether in a big-budget Disney film or the cinema of your own private reading experience. At the same time, I’m grateful that I didn’t let my need to see myself obstruct my enjoyment of texts like this one. If I’d felt shut out of the original story because of a white Meg, I might only have loved the book after I’d seen the film — but without a preexisting love for the book, I might never have seen the film at all. Or at least, I might not have been moved by it; at times it’s cartoonishly mystical and the first half was a real Fortinbras. Still, I cried upward of half a dozen times.

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For white viewers, who have historically had less work to do in order to use stories as reflective surfaces, the film will be something different. It shares the inclusiveness of its source material, offering precisely what I discovered when I read A Wrinkle in Time as a child: the invitation to identify across, and in spite of, difference. It’s the same skill I spent years learning with the legions of little white girls I met in books and film and classes. When I was younger, my reading practices were absorptive and uncritical enough that I could barge into any story and lose myself in anyone’s skin. The impulse was never “Is this what I’m like?” but “Is this what I could be like?” or, even better, “Is this what other people are like?” — concerns that I don’t regard as consolation prizes for lack of representation, but ones that I found just as thrilling and generative. I didn’t, and still don’t, only approach stories looking for versions of myself. But I am certainly more particular about the people with whom I am willing to claim literary kinship.

It’s so important that younger readers — and a broader range of young readers — now have the chance to develop that critical muscle at an earlier age, experiencing realities like the West African-inspired world of Tomi Adeyemi’s Children of Blood and Bone or Black Lives Matter in Angie Thomas’s The Hate U Give. But it’s also crucial not to lose sight of the power in encountering difference on the page, which gives rise to the need for representation, but also the limits of grounding identification in visuality: writing off a text because you don’t see yourself in it can be a dangerous foreclosure of dialogue and empathy. I find it less useful to demand “Why didn’t you include x identity category” of dead write writers and prefer to dedicate more time and attention to finding, engaging with, and championing the work of those living authors — those who embody precisely the kind of identity that has been written out of the “mainstream” version — that do.

Writing off a text because you don’t see yourself in it can be a dangerous foreclosure of dialogue and empathy.

My edition of A Wrinkle in Time has an author’s introduction where L’Engle comments on the “beautiful new covers for the Time Quartet,” which she interprets as an “indication that stories have a life of their own, and that they say different things to different people at different times.” It’s interesting that so many of the mixed-to-negative reviews of the film have questioned this book’s adaptability. To me, this has always been a welcoming text, one that is willing to extend a hand and invite you in, along with your wild ideas. I certainly intuited that impulse. I think DuVernay did, too.

Inventing Myself in an AOL Chatroom

I connected with “Njdude” on AOL when I was eighteen, in college, failing calculus, lonely, cold, and miserable. This was central Minnesota during winter’s peak, sitting in a musty green-carpeted dorm room which overlooked a sagging volleyball net and a parking lot flanked by jagged heaps of snow. I’d only been away from home for a few months, and instead of the intense freedom I’d expected to feel, I’d succumbed to near-crippling depression — the cold, for some reason, had been more tolerable when I’d known other people were suffering from it, too.

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?” This was my first instant message to “Njdude.” We were in a local room — Minnesota m4m — and I was slightly irritated that someone from New Jersey was occupying a coveted space. (The maximum occupancy was 23 chatters.)

“Just checking things out,” he messaged.

“There isn’t much to check out, so why come here?”

Back then, you had to mine information from actually chatting.

Back then, double-clicking a screen name opened a private message window, not a profile containing height, weight, ethnicity, aspirations, hobbies, preferred sexual positions, fetishes, disease statuses, marital statuses, relationship statuses, race preferences, body preferences, etc. etc. etc. Low(er) tech required people to mine this information from actually chatting, and though many people were upfront about their intentions — “HEY MAN I’M LOOKING FOR A BJ, YOU?” — many, even with the anonymity of the internet, preferred not to start off conversations in so blunt a manner. Back then, the internet was still relatively new, and people behaved with a certain amount of decorum, adhering to the outrageous idea that it was better to know someone before having sex.

“I’ve always wanted to visit,” Njdude typed.

“It’s just a lot of snow,” I replied.

His real name was Tim, and he was 47. He’d been married, had had two children, and on a gray Friday afternoon had been caught by his wife with a man in their bed. He’d divorced, moved to New York, made a circle of gay male friends, and promptly lost every one of them to AIDS. Feeling alone, desperate, destitute, he moved back to New Jersey to be close to his kids, worked as a production manager at a printing company, and tried as best he could to make sense of what had happened. In the evenings, he chatted online with men from all over the country, mostly men his age, but every once in a while with some young squirt like myself — an isolated, curious, frightened young man who hadn’t yet come out to anyone, who was scared to death of the world’s reception, who found solace in typing his feelings to strangers behind computer screens.

Over the months, our conversations grew personal and intense, and I began to rely on him for emotional and mental well-being. If he wasn’t online, I’d panic, and quickly send him an email saying, “You there? Where are you?” I’d sit and wait for my computer to announce, YOU HAVE MAIL, and when it didn’t happen, after I’d sat in heart-stretching silence for hours, I’d email him again. He found my agitation amusing, and when he finally replied, he’d remind me that he was an adult with an adult life, that unless we made specific plans to meet online, there was a good chance we wouldn’t be on at the same time. I told him that we should make specific plans, that we should meet in the New Jersey room every Tuesday, but he balked at that idea, telling me that his life would not revolve around his chat room sessions. It couldn’t, he said. There were other things.

I didn’t accept this right away, kept sending him email after email after email, but eventually an actual social life crystallized outside my computer, and this made him recede to a comfortable but important place in my head. As my frenzy diminished, I began seeing him as a friend, someone who put up with my naïve rants about the world, tolerated my propensity for melodrama, and knew things about me that my college friends never would. I continued chatting with him until the end of my freshman year. Then I stopped.

Years passed. Technology advanced. By the time I left college, wi-fi had become more than a conversation. The tech boom in Silicon Valley made delivery of nearly anything possible. People discussed discarding their landlines. Pictures cleared. Webpages accelerated. Everyone had Netscape; then Hotmail; then Yahoo. People texted. Friendster happened; then Myspace; then Facebook. “Friend” became a verb and “like” a noun. A language of truncation developed: LOLs followed by OMGs followed by srslys followed by ROFLs. Pornography became normal and available — not just pictures on glossy pages anymore, but actual video streams, people doing it in their bedrooms, living rooms, bathrooms. The movement from language to image imprinted itself onto the next generation, and soon dating became simply a matter of swiping pictures left or right, and I was left both amazed and appalled, impressed and utterly alarmed.

In elementary school, I remember wanting badly to “graduate” to pictureless books, to be a real adult who could comprehend words without accompanying images, and when I finally did — graduate, that is — I felt this keen sense of reward: fictional worlds developed more richly, emotional resonance lasted much longer. Technology’s swift change from words to images, then, to me, as an adult, seemed like an alarming regression, a flattening of imagination, a dimming of curiosity. Additionally, text that survived seemed trapped in a set of insipidly prescribed boxes, quantifying compatibility, relegating longings and ambitions and desires and loves to a series of character-limited profile squares. I hated it, so I often tuned out, used the internet only as an informational means, not as a device for personal connectivity.

Technology’s swift change from words to images seemed like an alarming regression, a flattening of imagination, a dimming of curiosity.

I quickly discovered, however, that without social media connections I wasn’t fully participating the current world, and the current world had become an intensely interesting place. The 2016 election had happened, and people were hurt, elated, scared, joyful, and while some blamed social media for the results, claiming it balkanized thought and normalized division, others used it to act, amassing support from all parts of the country, organizing some of the biggest marches this country has ever seen. Amidst horror and disbelief, I became excited; the internet had given me hope for a future of heightened awareness and socially conscious citizenship; it had once again become a place of solace, a way to feel connection, this time on a larger scale.

And yet.

Much of me still hated it. I hated that it so blatantly revealed longings and insecurities. I hated that it encouraged megalomania, and, as a result, encouraged individual despair. So I checked out. Then checked in. Then checked out. Then checked in. Then decided, after all that flipping and flopping, that it — the internet — was, like most things, okay. Harmful sometimes. Wonderful sometimes. But mostly okay. And what was so bad about okay? What was there to hate about okay? Thing was: it was voluntary. I could use it or not. I could have it at my disposal and ignore. So what was the harm? The problem? Why couldn’t I just keep myself in check, use it to establish meaningful connections, appreciate its potential, understand its limitations?

The other night, feeling weepy and sentimental and slightly drunk, I googled “Tim njdude.” Nothing relevant appeared, so I googled, “Tim njdude production manager.” Again: nothing. “Tim production manager New York” resulted in millions, and so did, “Tim production manager New York gay sad” and “Tim unfaithful two kids.” I checked Facebook. “Tim New Jersey.” Thousands. “Njdude.” “Tim Njdude.” “Njdude Tim gay.” Empty empty empty. Twitter? Nope. Instagram? Nope. Grindr? Err. I sat in front of my computer, closed my eyes, tried my hardest to remember something — anything — about him, something that’d fit nicely into a search engine, but the more I tried, the more I realized that I knew nothing, not what he looked like, not the city he lived in, not even his last name. This made me, for a moment, horribly sad. I had Facebook friends I hadn’t seen in thirty years and Twitter followers I’d never seen pictures of, yet this person whom I considered to be formatively sculpting could not be contacted online. Distressing, I thought. How utterly distressing.

And yet.

The more I thought about it, the more I found it for the best. I’d locked an image of Tim in my head — an older, wise-but-downtrodden man, using the internet to help me, a younger, impressionable man — and if I found him now, that image would waver, vacillate, and ultimately transform. Perhaps he would disappoint. Perhaps I would disappoint. Perhaps his responses to things wouldn’t be strong enough, or articulate enough, or clever enough, and perhaps I would slowly lose respect for him, downgrading him to an online friend who sometimes said inane, or thoughtless, or fumbling things. Perhaps I would block him. Perhaps I would unfriend. Perhaps. In any case, whatever happened, negative or positive, the electronic reunion would effectively replace and alter that beautiful, vital purpose he’d served, and so it was best that I kept my original image of him. It was best I simply remember him as “Njdude,” a hopeful and encouraging and commiserating voice calling out to me a thousand miles away.

Daniel Mallory Ortberg’s Short Short Story About Who Owns Beauty

From ‘The Merry Spinster’

In an old time, in an old country, there lived a man whose daughters were all beautiful and unlucky. To be beautiful in this place was to be noticed; it was for this reason his daughters were so remarkably unlucky. Here people prayed to be forgotten, and they prayed with their faces to the floor.

It was the man’s youngest daughter who was the unluckiest of all. He was so beautiful that the sun herself noticed and had in fact fallen quite in love with him, and never let her rays stray from his face for even a moment while she hung above the rim of the world. So the youngest daughter slept with his face jammed into a pillow, and with coverlets piled over his head, but the sun would not let him sleep unnoticed. Every day she found him, and every day she woke him while everyone else was still asleep. Beauty is never private.

“Beauty does not belong exclusively to you,” the man told his daughters. “Beauty is a public good, and you are responsible for it.”

“What does that mean, exactly?” the youngest daughter asked. The sun burned hot on his forehead.

“It means — in a sense — that according to a certain understanding you belong to everyone,” the man said.

“By that reasoning,” his daughter said, “I belong at least partly to myself. Certainly at least as much as I belong to anybody else.”

“Don’t be clever,” his father said. “Go and play outside, where people can see you.”

The land near the man’s house was very old and thickly wooded. In this forest, beneath a linden tree, there was a well full of standing water. In the heat of the day, when the sun’s attentions became unbearable, the man’s youngest daughter would run across the highway and into the woods, where the trees stood so close together that almost no light reached the ground.

He would take with him a golden ball, as round and as yellow as the sun. He would throw it straight up in the air, then catch it when it came down; he never threw it in any other direction. It was his favorite pastime, and he never tired of it.

On this day, it happened that he threw the golden ball so high into the branches overhead that it disappeared into the spreading darkness, only to drop suddenly far to the left of him and vanish with a smothering sound into the well. He leaned over the edge and looked down, but the water was so dark, and the well so deep, that he could not see the slightest sign that anything had ever been there but scum and mosquitoes. If anyone had tried to console him in that moment, he would have sunk down onto the stone and refused them, but no one did, so he continued to lean over the well, looking down.

Also, he was not stupid, and knew better than to dive into water he didn’t know how deep, when there was only one way in or out. Eventually, however, someone came along and noticed his crying (as someone generally did), and called out to him. He looked around to find the voice and saw that a frog had thrust its flat, wet head out of the well. The frog looked like a calf’s heart with a mouth slit across it.

“I was crying because I lost something that I love.”

“I can help you, but what will you give me if I bring you back your plaything?”

“But I did not ask you to help me,” he said, “so why should I promise you anything?”

“You are sitting on my well,” said the frog. “You are beautiful, and you are crying, and I saw you before anyone else did; that is almost the same thing as asking, or being asked, anyhow.” The frog brushed its hand over his, and the man’s youngest daughter had no answer for that.

“I don’t know what I should promise you,” he said. “You can have anything else that I own. I could bring you something, if there was something that you wanted, and that you could not get for yourself, I suppose. My chain of office that my father gave me.”

The frog said, “Keep your boyish treasures — I don’t want them, nor is there anything you can fetch for me I could not get myself. I do not need an errand boy. But if you will accept me as a companion, and let me sit next to you at your father’s table, and eat from the plate you eat from, and drink from your cup, and sleep in your bed; if you would promise this to me, then I’ll dive back into the well and bring your golden ball back to you.”

“Yi­i­i­i­ikes,” the boy said slowly. He thought of his father’s words: You are responsible for your beauty. “Well,” he said. “I could promise all this to you, if you brought it back to me.” He hoped that maybe the frog was joking, although he had no reason to believe it was; people rarely joked with him. He thought, as he often did before making a promise, that perhaps he would not have to keep it, or that maybe the promise would not be so bad in the keeping as it had been in the making.

At any rate, as soon as the frog heard him say yes, it stopped listening to him and dove back into the water, a dark clot darting swiftly under the surface, until it disappeared from sight entirely.

A few minutes later the frog paddled up to the edge of the well with the golden ball bulging between its thin lips and spat it out onto the grass. Its tongue was a livid purple and bulged out of its mouth. But the youngest daughter was too happy to pay much attention to how the frog looked. He was so relieved, in fact, that he picked up the ball immediately and ran for home.

“Wait,” said the frog, wheezing and dripping. “Take me along. I cannot run as fast as you can; that is not my fault but yours.” But he could no longer hear the frog, and quickly forgot about it and what it had done for him in the forest.

The next day the youngest daughter was sitting at the table with his father and all his sisters, when something with a lipless mouth and thumbless hands hauled itself up the front steps of the house. It knocked on the door and called out, “Daughter, youngest, open the door for me!” So he ran to see who it was, and opened the door wide to see the frog sitting there, panting from the strain of crawling up the stairs. He slammed the door shut and sat back down at the table. His father saw his face and asked, “Why are you so distressed, and who was at the door?”

“It was a frog,” he said. Then: “We are going to have to wash the front steps.”

“Did someone knock on our front door and leave a frog there,” his father asked, “or did the frog knock and expect to be let in?”

“Well,” his youngest daughter said. “I think it wanted to be let in.”

“I did not ask what the frog wanted,” his father said. “I asked if the frog expected to be let in.” All the other daughters had stopped pretending to eat at this point and stared in open excitement at the prospect of watching one of their number get into trouble.

“Well,” his daughter said. “Only — yesterday, when I was sitting near the well in the forest, my golden ball fell into the water.”

“Sitting near the well, or on it?”

“On it, Father. Sitting on it, and my golden ball fell into the water, and I was crying over it, and I was crying so much that the frog brought it back to me, and because it insisted on repayment, I promised him that he could be my companion, but I did not think it would be possible for the frog to leave the well, because — don’t frogs have to live in the water? And now it is sitting outside the door and wants to come in.”

“If you were sitting on the well and not just near it,” his father said, “then you must keep your promise.” Just then there came another knock at the door.

“But I did not really promise it,” the youngest daughter said. “It made the promise for me, and to itself, and I did not really ask it to get the ball. It volunteered.” He scrunched down low in his seat, too late to escape notice. He really was a very unlucky daughter.

His father said only: “You should not have sat on a well that was not yours. Go and open the door, and let the frog in.”

He went back to the door and opened it, and the frog hopped inside, then followed him back to his chair. It sat at his feet a moment and then said, “Lift me up next to you.” He did not move until his father insisted. Then he did it.

The frog sat next to his hand on the table, and said, “Now push your plate closer to me, so we can eat together.” Its breath smelled like old coins, and the youngest daughter shuddered but brought the plate closer.

Finally the frog said: “I have eaten everything I wanted to eat. Now I am tired. Carry me to your room and put me in your bed, so that we can go to sleep.”

The man’s youngest daughter began to cry. “Maybe you would prefer a little bed of your own,” he said.

“Put me in between your knees,” the frog said. “I will be warm there, and the only thing that will get dirty is you, and you can wash.”

At this the youngest daughter shook his head and shrank back in his seat. His father grew angry and said, “You took help when it was offered, and you inch now at repayment; do not make use of someone else’s property, and do not offer someone your beauty, if you do not intend to repay them in kind.”

The youngest daughter carried the frog upstairs and set it in a corner of his room, where it sat and stared at him. Next he got into bed without looking at it, but as he was lying under the blankets, it came creeping up to the foot of the bed. The frog said, “I am tired, and I want to sleep, too. Pick me up, and put me in bed with you, or I’ll tell your father.”

This was one request too many, and the youngest daughter became violently angry and shook all over. He threw back the blankets, picked up the frog, and flung it against the wall as hard as he could. “Here is your payment, and here is your thanks — now keep your peace!” The frog slid down to the oor and began to croak. It croaked louder and louder until his father filled the doorway, and picked the frog up himself, and placed it in bed with his daughter. Then he left, closing the door behind him without saying a word.

The frog was all the softer for having been thrown against the wall. It crawled underneath his legs, cold and close, and pressed a lipless kiss against the back of his knees. The daughter wished that all his skin was dead and gone. By and by the frog fell asleep, and the boy lay awake and staring all night, and for many nights afterward. He was very unlucky.

About the Author

Mallory Ortberg is Slate’s “Dear Prudence.” She has written for The New Yorker, New York magazine, O, The Oprah Magazine, and The Atlantic. She is the cocreator of The Toast, a general-interest website geared toward women. Mallory is the author of Texts from Jane Eyre and The Merry Spinster.

Excerpted from THE MERRY SPINSTER: Tales of Everyday Horror by Mallory Ortberg, published by HENRY HOLT AND COMPANY. Copyright © 2018 by Mallory Ortberg. All rights reserved.

What I’ve Learned from Turning People’s Hopes and Fears into Private Immersive Performances

When I tell people about what I do, they usually don’t believe that something like it exists in the world. I’ll say something along the lines of, “I’m the Assistant Director of a company called Odyssey Works that studies the life of one individual at a time in order to create bespoke, immersive experiences for that participant that last days, weeks, sometimes even months.” It’s an elevator pitch, an attempt to distill my complex and unusual job into a digestible soundbite for quick comprehension, but instead it usually just opens up more curiosity and confusion. The next series of questions are a quick staccato and I always wish that I had an hour to elaborate. Who does this? Where do Odysseys occur? How do you pick the person you study? Is it like the Michael Douglas movie The Game? How much does it cost? People always want to know how much it costs.

I try not to be too rote when I respond. I’ve been at this for six years with my collaborator, Abraham Burickson, who co-founded Odyssey Works with Matthew Purdon in 2001, and it’s important to me to engage sincerely with questions like these — no matter how many times I hear them. But the short version of my reply usually contains the same few elements: We are a collaborative team of dozens of artists in just as many disciplines who work together for at least three months to study our participant. The way we select our participant depends largely on how we are funded, through grants or private commissions. Grants allow us to open a call for applications in a certain city and give the experience to someone as a gift. Commissions are a lot more flexible; we’ll go just about anywhere and study just about anyone. It is, in fact, like that Michael Douglas movie, only not quite so much adrenaline.

It is, in fact, like that Michael Douglas movie ‘The Game,’ only not quite so much adrenaline.

The longer answer, or at least the more interesting answer, is that Odyssey Works is an exercise in empathy — in the magic of paying sustained, intimate attention to another person. And what I’ve learned from six years of paying this kind of attention is that empathy is transformative — not only for the kind of bespoke performances we make, but for all writing, and indeed, all human work.

When we study our participant before planning an Odyssey, we take many approaches. The first is a questionnaire that takes hours to complete; the finished document is usually about 10–15 pages long. It covers everything from biographical information to aesthetic tastes and ideological perspectives on the world. Next, we conduct phone interviews with the friends, family, children, parents, coworkers, lovers of the participant, after which we go on retreat to spend a week as a team thinking deeply about our subject. We drink their favorite beverages, watch their most beloved films, listen to the albums they get nostalgic over, and even try to dream about them. The goal in this process is to fall in love with them. Yes, they are a stranger to us, but when someone is that vulnerable with us and we have the energy to give them our undivided attention, it is surprisingly easy to become enamored.

In good writing, we often talk about detail. Sensory detail. Vivid detail. Specific detail. It might sound obvious, and yet details are why we fall in love with a person. Details are the things that make them singular humans rather than shells that act merely as tropes, or even worse, clichés. As we hold this person at the center of attention, we begin to see the world through their eyes, with their subjectivity. This, of course, is empathy, true empathy, which fosters intimacy. Intimacy makes us human, brings us closer to those who have led such different lives than our own experiences have provided. During our retreat, we ask ourselves, What do we wish for this person?

Maybe the answer is for them to inhabit their body more. Or to unleash themselves from the perspective that they are a victim. Once we have answered this question, we begin to approach a structure that will be in service of this focus. Abraham and I are both trained writers, and we map out a narrative using the very real parts of the participant’s life to tell the story. One man, Carl, was fascinated with maps, so for him we used this love of visual layers of information as a way to propel him through his Odyssey, gathering information and making his own maps out of them. Another participant, Rick, was in the middle of a great transition in his life, and so we cast the net of narrative laced with threads about home and relied on Homer’s epic, our namesake, blended in with traces of Moby Dick. We all have a life story, a frame or lens that we use to link what might otherwise be an arbitrary string of events together. Overlaying narrative into the work is what gives each hour, each minute, meaning, significance, weight.

A diagram by Danielle Baskin and Abraham Burickson mapping the arc of experience for Rick’s odyssey “When I Left the House t Was Still Dark”

The performances transform lives, both those of our team members and our participants. Almost across the board, our participants change jobs, move to new cities, break up with their partner, or get married after experiencing an Odyssey. Their way of seeing the world is altered. Funny thing, when you realize you are in a weekend-long performance that revolves around you, everything is ripe with potential. Our participant’s’ attention and presence shift during and after Odyssey. The woman next to you on the subway could be a plant; does the fact that she’s knitting mean something? Hitting a red light suddenly feels significant, rather than merely annoying. Could the fact that your roommate left this book open on the counter be foreshadowing what is to come? Does the fact that the restaurant is serving your mother’s favorite dish as the special tonight say something about motherhood itself? There’s a difference between seeing potential in the world around you and feeling watched. It’s pronoia, or the belief that the world is conspiring to do good things for you, as opposed to paranoia.

There’s a certain inefficiency to devoting so much time and labor towards one person, and in the last two years we’ve been making it our goal to invite others into this practice of attentiveness, intimacy, and vulnerability. In 2016, Abraham and I published a book with the hopes that others might take some of our methods into their own hands, and we started leading workshops that introduce people to our process and applications to their own work. Our classes mirror Odyssey Works’ research phase. In the first half of our workshops, people conduct one-on-one interviews that are designed to open them up to incredibly intimate conversation with a partner very quickly, just the same way our questionnaire does. In the second half, they design an experience tailored to their partner. Not all of our students are interested in creating immersive experiences as an end goal; they’re writers, designers, advertisers, educators. But each and every one of us has had to plan a date, a birthday party, a baby shower at some point, and these are the origins of experience design. And all of them walk away seeing new ways they can employ empathy in their lives. Like preparing an Odyssey, the workshop requires them to pay deep, sustained, intimate attention to someone, and that experience is the goal.

Whether you work in the corporate sector, are an abstract painter, are someone who designs apps, or works a marine biologist, empathy is the key to creating truly meaningful relationships, lives, artwork, school work, and work-work. Empathy isn’t just what will make your novel feel real, rather than flat. Empathy will guide you to design an app that isn’t so addictive. Empathy is what will make a doctor better understand how one symptom in one limb might be connected to the larger narrative of what’s going on in someone’s life. Empathy will make you see the world and your fellow humans differently.

Almost across the board, our participants change jobs, move to new cities, break up with their partner, or get married after experiencing an Odyssey.

I’m teaching poetry to undergraduate students at UCSD right now and have been thinking a lot about what it means to teach something that is as hard to pin down. Poetry’s ineffability shares quite a bit with the complexity of Odyssey Works’ practice. On the first day of class I asked my students what they think poetry is, and challenged them to think of something they had seen in the world that was poetic. They gave mind-blowing answers — that poetry is “protest and praise,” that it is “transcendence” — and described moments of synchronicity in their life that constituted lived poetics. When I thought about their answers, I realized that spending class periods teaching them about rhyme schemes, or what a tercet is, would not help them write good poetry. They can after all, use Google to learn about the technical aspects of writing and many of them are STEM students. What would guide them to write moving poems was having time to slow down, to observe the world closely, to attune to the world and their senses, to be curious. Since then, each class period I have been guiding then to practice their skills of presence and attention, to tap into the obsessions that make them human. I taught them the word “numinous,” and we discussed the ways in which poetry approaches the spiritual realm. We have looked at confessional and epistolary poems as a lens to think about urgency and prayer. As Mary Ruefle reminds us, “attention, taken to its highest degree, is the same thing as prayer.”

A beautiful moment that Carl encountered on a walk through Central Park. (Photo: Ayden LeRoux)

Poetry, it turns out, is about getting to the quick of what it means to be human. There is a reason that it’s part of the “Humanities.”

A few weeks ago, as I led our Empathy and Experience Design workshop, I was struck that if you ask what kind of toilet paper someone uses, inquire how they fell in love with their partner, or dig into what made them cry most recently, whatever the answer is, people come alive. That curiosity invites blossoming. Every question is an acknowledgement that we are full of depth and complexity that is deeper than what we do and where we are from. I couldn’t help but think that fundamentally the aim of my poetry class was the same as what we do in Odyssey Workshops. Both offer time to learn how to connect with a complete stranger on the page or in person, to look closer at the world and feel seen. Everything comes back to inviting more vulnerability, intimacy, empathy, attentiveness, and curiosity. To be as human as we possibly can.

I Only Listen to Audiobooks on Vinyl

Hachette Audio and Wax Audio recently announced a series of vinyl-plus-digital audiobooks that it will be releasing in 2018, beginning with David Foster Wallace’s This Is Water. As I believe that all audiobooks were meant to be listened to on vinyl (the sound is just … warmer, you know?), this is amazing news.

All titles released “will also include digital download codes for the full version of the audiobook (for titles too long to fit on one or two LPs),” but that’s not for me. When Chaucer was writing The Canterbury Tales, he didn’t intend for you to listen to it in your car; he expected you to drive out to that one Barnes & Noble that’s still open and buy the vinyl recording narrated by Wil Wheaton.

Stop telling me that if I only listen to one vinyl’s worth of a book I’m going to grossly misunderstand what that book is about! You’re distracting me from setting up my record player on the coffee shop’s community table! Anyway, here are what I must assume are the complete plots of the one-vinyl books I’ve listened to so far.

Stop telling me that if I only listen to one vinyl’s worth of a book I’m going to grossly misunderstand what that book is about! You’re distracting me from setting up my record player on the coffee shop’s community table!

Moby Dick: A clinically depressed man gives Nantucket a terrible review on TripAdvisor.

Catcher in the Rye: A moody teen gives Life a terrible review on TripAdvisor.

The Odyssey: A disgruntled writer takes to his LiveJournal to complain about his deadbeat dad.

Les Miserables: The life story of M. Charles Myriel, the Bishop of Digne.

Infinite Jest: A young man absolutely nails his entrance interview to the University of Arizona.

The Hobbit: A bunch of dwarves wreck some guy’s house.

Can You Speed-Read Your Way to Happiness?

The Sound and the Fury: A how-to guide on how to properly behave when people are golfing.

Fahrenheit 451: A comically bad fireman struggles to understand his job.

Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone: A mild-mannered man named Mr. Dursley slowly starts hallucinating.

Twilight: A weather-obsessed teen makes a dream trip to Forks, Washington, a city with a lot of weather.

A Tale of Two Cities: The narrator discovers the “antonym” function on Thesaurus.com and starts showing off.

A Tale of Two Cities: The narrator discovers the “antonym” function on Thesaurus.com and starts showing off.

1984: A man who is very bad at telling time and counting finds solace in the care of his big brother.

The Grapes of Wrath: An intrepid turtles struggles, but ultimately succeeds, to cross the road.

The remainder of Steinbeck’s books: World’s worst tourism campaign for the Salinas Valley.

The Bible: An offbeat rom-com about a guy, a girl, and a snake, described by fans as “Naked and Afraid” meets “Three’s Company” meets “your obnoxious friend whose new trendy diet doesn’t let them eat fruit, for some reason.”

Where the Red Fern Grows: A man gets a new dog! What a delight! Don’t worry about why!

Love You Forever: A mother rocks her baby son to sleep, which is appropriate and not creepy because he is a baby and that’s where it stops.

Jesse Ball Left His Main Character Out of His Book

“It occurred to me last month that I would like to write a book about my brother. I felt, and feel, that people with Down syndrome are not really understood. What is in my heart when I consider him and his life is something so tremendous, so full of light, that I thought I must write a book that helps people to see what it is like to know and love a Down syndrome boy or girl. It is not like what you would expect.” — Jesse Ball, prologue to Census

The new novel from Jesse Ball, Census, is a book full of unexpected pairings. A tender moment between a father and son exists on the same page as an interrogation by a Kafkaesque bureaucracy. A surgeon who has mastered the science of life must learn the art of preparing for death — his own — and its aftermath, which includes arrangements for the son with Down syndrome who will survive him.

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It is the son who emerges as the most important character in the novel. His father, our narrator, doesn’t describe him to the reader; rather, he describes a series of interactions the young man has with friends and strangers. By having the father observe and tell us how his son relates to others, Ball illuminates the core of both characters. We discover their world — and consider ours — through a double lens of experience.

As a fellow poet and teacher, I talked to Jesse about how we define poems and books, and pursuing an abstract form of writing for Census.

Candace Williams: I know you started writing poetry when you were 12. What was the first poem that you read as a child that made you say, “Wow, I want to write these.”

Jesse Ball: Well, it’s hard to remember the first one because my parents were always reading poetry to me as a child. We would read a lot of poetry aloud. I loved poetry that had a lot of sound in it. Dylan Thomas, for instance. I still love Dylan Thomas but he frustrates me a little. I want there to be a little more meaning in the poems. I loved all of the sounds of these Old English poems. I’ve always loved Sir Gawain and the Green Knight. We read the Song of Roland and these sort of epic, epic things like the “Charge of the Light Brigade.”

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CW: Kids love the sound of poetry. I run a poetry guild for my sixth graders and we’re reading a lot of Persian poetry from the Middle Ages. They love Rumi, Hafiz, and Rabia Balkhi. They love ghazals. I have better conversations about poems with them than I do with adults.

JB: Kids are more qualified to understand Hafiz than adults. All the baggage that you take on to become a supposedly “mature” person really prevents you from feeling these epiphanies. Hafiz is in the middle of a marketplace just crying out. Rumi and Hafiz have discarded things that we are as adults implicitly support. But children, not yet. We would do better to be more like children.

CW: I believe that. Every day I talk to them about issues in the world. I think they have a better grasp on what’s real and what’s artifice.

Even though you started to write poems when you were 12, you didn’t show your poems to anyone for a long time. How did showing your work to an audience change you? I’m wondering how the process of publishing and marketing your writing changed you as a writer.

JB: I am interested in things not many people are interested in, like absurdity and the hatred of the United States. I don’t write very often, so most of the time I’m just kind of wandering around in a cloud, reading, and trying to be a basic human being.

There are certainly unpleasant demands that come with being a published writer, and I think if they’re not handled in the right way it can be an impediment to making things. But I think it’s more the phantom of these things that ends up being problematic. Like, the thought of meeting people who read your work. That kind of phantom just means that you have to create for yourself some kind of vision of who you are for other people.

It becomes an impediment if you want something specific out of your public side or if it matters that a lot that people think well of you. If you go through the 20th century there are many different figures whose public face is not self-aggrandizing but working in service to something larger than themselves. They have a hope of something for both themselves and others. Like James Baldwin. His public persona was not something extruded in order to make him seem smart. The public side is this deep side of service. I think that’s a way to make these responsibilities not a negative responsibility but a kind of compass. Am I really doing the things that I need to do? Am I keeping in tune with the help that’s being asked of me by others?

Asking questions is almost always superior to coming up with answers.

CW: In a way, we’re talking about necessary performance. Not just the the performance of writing or speaking but also the performance of listening and reading. It reminds me of Fanon’s concept of double consciousness. I have my immediate consciousness but I also have to contend with white consciousness at every turn. I automatically position myself for myself and also for others.

One part of Census that really spoke to me was the way the main character had to go from house to house and ask questions. I love how he thinks about those questions and starts to really dive into the power dynamic of being the questioner.

JB: I think this is the core of teaching. What you should give in a teaching practice is all the secrets that you truly feel are most valuable about being that you’ve discovered in your life. One of those secrets is that asking questions is almost always superior to coming up with answers.

This is even true in science and mathematics. Many of the supposedly greatest thinkers were known for coming up with with these really interesting questions. They don’t even manage to answer all the questions they come up with. That’s left for lesser scientists. There are so many different ways to answer questions. Sometimes the question itself is posed and then an answer isn’t necessarily even required. You know, that’s something that I’d like to have in the classroom. It’s okay to ask the question, and then for no one to say an answer, for everyone to just think about all the possible answers. That’s sufficient.

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CW: I know that your brother Abram lived with Down syndrome and I know that you wanted to find a way to talk about that in a work of fiction. Something I really respect about this book is that you’re writing about the problems and the joys in the lives of the father and son. Yesterday, I was talking to my sixth graders about the complexities and risks of stories by writers without physical or intellectual disabilities that depict characters living with disabilities. Writers often end up using ableist tropes.

What were your biggest fears about writing the character of the son and how did you overcome those fears?

JB: English caricatures people with disabilities implicitly. So I had to avoid almost any depiction in the book. It had to be only depiction in a negative space — the effect of the person and such. I was very taken with this idea and I felt that that I could do it. But in hindsight, I’m not exactly sure why I thought that I could do it. It seems like there are any number of ways that it could have failed — the son could have been too shallow or might not exist. So I’m kind of humbled by the fact that it did turn out well.

I think that this book waited a long time to appear. It’s my 15th book. It was something that hadn’t occurred to me to write before, or potentially it was something that I waited to wait to write until I felt I had a certain level of technical ability such that I could write it successfully. Part of that was the ambitiousness of having the main character of a book essentially not be present in the book. It was a self-dare to think that the book could hold up and hold together if I left the most important person in the book out of it.

If I want to feel that an actual labor is underway, I want to physically see it, I want it to be a real physical thing.

CW: When you get to that abstract level where we can’t necessarily measure or see something, you measure and see what’s around it. It seems like you’re applying this logic to thinking about people and writing about people.

I saw a photograph of you standing in front of your manuscript in your Bucktown studio. The manuscript is stuck to the wall with blue painter’s tape. I also paste up my poems with blue painter’s tape. It makes me think of poems as something we can design, that people will touch as they leaf through the pages of a book, get into the world that you’re creating. Can you talk about how you relate to books and poems as physical and visual objects?

JB: When I started writing books of poems in the ’90s, I really felt that the publisher does not get to say “this is a book,” “that’s a book.” That’s something I get to say. I’m the one who gets to say whether something is a book. At that time, when I wrote books, I would just print copies and bind them myself in a somewhat slipshod but still smart-looking fashion. I got to thinking that it is 99.999999999% of a book being a book. In history there have been many different poets and writers who have had only one copy of their book for decades and then other people find it. You know, I think I gave mine out to six or seven people. Today, copies are printed in the thousands to gain adulation or notoriety. I think writers are pressured to measure up to their specific time and if they do, then their work is embraced. But if you happen to be out of step with your time, if potentially there’s only one copy of the book, the copy that you made that doesn’t make it any less a book. It’s just a question of whether you matched up with the time that you’re in. I had a strong feeling about taking that possession and saying, “I’m the one who declares the book,” and giving it some people that I knew. Some of those people still have old copies of my books at home. I’m just saying this is a sufficient thing for someone who wants such a thing. It’s not insufficient until it gets the blessing of the powers that be.

I push in that direction — you have the ideas, and then you’re writing them down, and then you have them in an electronic form that’s just too ephemeral. If I want to feel that an actual labor is underway, I want to physically see it, I want it to be a real physical thing. So I always print the pages and put them up in different ways. Also, life is constantly being pushed on by the world’s consensus on what should matter, and what a life should look like, and what the things that you should be making should look like. It takes so much energy to repel that. One of the ways that I repel it is by making my living space into a kind of laboratory where I don’t need to push back against the world because my poems are already doing that for me. I see them like a like a shield.